“Heav'n has no rage like love to hatred turn'd / Nor Hell a
fury, like a woman scorn'd."
- The Mourning Bride by William
Congreve.
It is true that I am afraid of my
wife scorn and this week I learned that it is because of the fear of that scorn
that I am afraid to jump off the cliff and pursue my entrepreneurial dreams. I
am afraid that by starting a business, selling our house for income, or anything
that my wife doesn’t want, it will cause greater marriage difficulties. It
funny that I literally don’t care about what anyone else thinks, my father, my
mother, my brother, my friends, ect… but she, I do care and am afraid. My current wife is amazing and I love
her, so I wonder if this wrath that I portray upon her is from my first wife
because in that relationship it was verbally and emotional abusive.
Because of
the exercise this week called “Deconstructing your fears” I have come to
realize why I don’t move, why I don’t climb over the brick walls and why I
haven’t succeeded sooner at my entrepreneurial dreams and why I keep making
businesses that aren’t my life’s calling or life dream.
It is time
that I learn how to overcome this root fear and what my wife and I can do to
come together and do both of our dreams together.
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